Random...

current weight : 107
goal weight : 90
im so procrastinating. i have this big project due monday and a test tommorrow. and i have to organize all my binders. but really, its annoying and upsetting to have to keep such a big secret from your family.

why must my entire world revolve around what i eat??? all i can think about is food (bad) and food (good) and i need to focus that attention to my homework so that i can pass my classes. i've never been that good at school, but this year im gonna try really hard. i will make my mom proud and get 85s and 90s.

instead of doing all of this, i am here, feeling worthless and self-consious (all at me and my body, not anyone i know)

haha found great thinspo in my class! these girls i know are sooo skinny, their measerments are like 27-23-31 super petite and i am in almost every class with them, so i get to see them and watch them all the time! but other than that, lifes going pretty good. i mean, i dropped 2 pounds, so i should be happy, right? i am, of course, i just thought it would be more exciteing to see my hard work actually pay off. really i was just kind of dissapointed. 107? really? when my goal is 90? not sooo great.

anyways, off to dance, hope to cleanse my spirit and burn some calories!!!